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The big roleplaying convention that I like to go to in Canberra is hoping to run this year, and while I doubt I’ll be well enough for it, it’s had me thinking. Not in a ruminating way; more a reminiscing way. My older brother got me into roleplaying when I was thirteen. Prior to that,Continue reading “Reminiscing.”

Boy, that identity thing, huh? First up, this isn’t going to be a post complaining about labels and identity politics and pronouns. I’m not here for that. Use whatever labels and pronouns work for you and don’t be a dick about what people want to be called, please. That said: boy howdy is my identityContinue reading “Illness, identity, and intersectionality”

Hi, blog. Long time no post. It turns out when your body goes to heck, sitting at the computer and putting words into an intelligible order is hard. You get a phone post. Don’t you feel special? It’s been a rough year. We still don’t have answers for why I got so sick so fast.Continue reading “2022: Just Like Last Time”

According to the collective wisdom of the internet and people with little, if any, medical training, I am Evil. I have Borderline Personality Disorder, one of the dreaded Cluster B personality disorders. People with BPD are stereotyped as manipulative liars, unstable emotional vampires, resistant to treatment, unwilling to change, and all-around nightmare people who shouldContinue reading “Health of the non-physical but still very real kind”

There’s something weirdly traumatising about chronic illness and disability. That feels absurd to say, but medical conditions are among the things that can elicit a trauma response, and looking at some stuff going on in my life right now, I can say I’m exhibiting trauma response. So that’s fun. I’ve always been prone to nightmares.Continue reading “On trauma”

It’s coming up on a year since the first hospital visit that was the precursor to all …this… and I am having A Time. Wrestling with paperwork for the NDIS, for getting a stair lift installed in the building, arranging home pathology visits and telehealth appointments. It’s a lot. And there’s still no answer asContinue reading “West Side Story 2: Horses vs Zebras”

This one is going to get a little bit political and a lot personal. I have a lot of tests this week and a new specialist team appointment next week and am feeling very raw, and a lot of this has been on my mind for a while. There is this tendency that I amContinue reading “Incontinence is not shameful.”

I’ve been playing a lot of Stardew Valley while I’ve been so unwell, because I’ve been too sick to do much but I haven’t wanted to just sleep all day, so playing on my Switch has been a godsend. It helps me keep my mind engaged while not having to sit up at my computerContinue reading “And Now For Something Completely Different”

So last post I said “it’s down to my weight”, but that’s not entirely true. The problem is that my heart is under too much pressure, is having to work far too hard, and has far too much to do. There are a lot of reasons for this, and we can’t change most of thoseContinue reading “Further Musing”

So, many of you know that I’ve been having serious health troubles this last year. I’ve been in to see my cardiologist and things are looking… not up, but not nearly as bad as I was preparing myself for. I have low-key been steeling myself for “yeah, you’re in heart failure” for the last fewContinue reading “It’s Still A Good-Looking Heart”