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I am currently in that state that chronic illness patients know all too well: I’m too sick to be functional, but not sick enough for anything but waiting to see my specialists. Whatever is going on, it’s not acute, so the hospital can’t help me and I don’t want to burden them with “we’ll runContinue reading “Limbo, and not the fun dancing kind”

I have been watching a lot of The Great British Bake Off, because right now I can’t cope with anything that requires concentration or emotional investment, and GBBO is lovely. Everyone on it is so nice. It’s stress-free, and I need stress-free right now. Something I’m still having trouble coming to terms with is theContinue reading “Baby Steps”

It is time for your irregularly scheduled 4am blog post, because when you’re stuck in bed most of the time because your blood pressure goes nuclear when you stand up, your sleep schedule goes to heck. Something I’ve been trying to deal with lately is the concept of “getting better” or, as my aunt andContinue reading “On “Getting Better””

First law of thermodynamics: energy cannot be created or destroyed, only converted. Which in me seems to translate to “your body needs all your energy just to semi-function; there is none left for anything else”. It’s rough right now. I’m very tired, all the time. I’ve been keeping a written record of my symptoms andContinue reading “Conservation of Energy”

It was R U OK day, and I am not okay. My mental health is in a weird place. My depression and anxiety are in a better place than they used to be, because I’m in a stable, supportive living situation and I’m in treatment. My BPD is pretty decently managed. But 2020 is beingContinue reading “What Is OK Anyway?”

As anybody know knows me is aware, I am fat. I’m what we call fatty fatty fat fat aka “morbidly obese”, for a variety of reasons. Some of these reasons are my “fault” (although I think ascribing fault to health stuff is a short walk down a bad path); I made terrible food choices whenContinue reading “The Unbearable Weight of Weight”

There is a lot I have to rant about right now, from the latest NDIS heckery to my cardiologist still insisting that the only thing that will help me is bariatric surgery, but that’s not what tonight is for. Tonight is for positives. 1: I do not have the ‘rona! I do have a sinusContinue reading “Positives”

I have been at the doctor all morning and it has not been a fun time. The good news is that my heart looks pretty good. This was a concern, because I’ve been having pretty scary heart issues – the least bit of exertion has been making me feel faint and giving me thundery heartContinue reading “A Very Good-Looking Heart”

As the venerable Arnie once said. It’s also not COVID, but as I am discovering, I have most of the COVID symptoms most of the time. It’s special. It’s nearly 5am and I haven’t slept yet, because I have a terrible headache that isn’t worsened by looking at screens but is bad enough that IContinue reading “It’s Naht A Toomah”

Today’s vocabulary word is “homeostasis”, which is the process by which the body maintains a certain equilibrium. It involves the endocrine system, the pituitary, the pancreas, all that fun stuff. You may recognise these things as things that Do Not Work Well In Me. It turns out that when you don’t produce your own cortisol,Continue reading “In Which I Am A Fainting Goat”